Never Gonna Be Alone.....

Time, is going by, so much faster than I,

And I'm starting to regret not spending all of it with you.

Now I'm, wondering why, I've kept this bottled inside,

So I'm starting to regret not telling all of this to you.

So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know...

Never gonna be alone!

From this moment on, if you ever feel like letting go,

I won't let you fall...

Never gonna be alone!

I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone.

And now, as long as I can, I'm holding on with both hands,

'Cause forever I believe that there's nothing I could need but you,

So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know...

Never gonna be alone!

From this moment on, if you ever feel like letting go,

I won't let you fall.When all hope is gone,

I know that you can carry on.

We're gonna see the world out,I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone.

You've gotta live every single day,

Like it's the only one, what if tomorrow never comes?

Don't let it slip away,

Could be our only one, you know it's only just begun.

Every single day,

Maybe our only one, what if tomorrow never comes?

Tomorrow never comes...

Time, is going by, so much faster than I,

And I'm starting to regret not telling all of this to you.

So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know...

Never gonna be alone!

From this moment on, if you ever feel like letting go,

I won't let you fall.

When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on.

We're gonna see the world out,

I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone.

I'm gonna be there always,

I won't be missing one more day,

I'm gonna be there always,

I won't be missing one more day.

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Oscar Winner....

Praise The Lord...! I'm finally back in business....

back to state training....!

run, Run, RUn, RUN.....!!!

exhausted....!!!

that's not my point.....!

i just realized there're some potential Oscar Award winners among my friends.... when i got into church office to check on my parcels arrived this afternoon, she paused her works and looked at me, "You look tired, are you ok...?" well, i was about to recovered from sick and still struggled with a bit coughing. she went to the kitchen and brought out a cup of water with her. she just stood there with the cup of water in her hands while i was busy checking the contain of my parcels. i felt something, something strange. as long as i knew her, she never did this before. i looked up and stretched out my hands for the cup as i knew the cup of water was for me. "Actually, i'm coming back..." i gave her a smile and finished up the cup of water then continue on my stuffs.....

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"I'm coming back...! you know...? I do mean I'm coming back..." i was stunned at that moment. what do you mean by you're coming back...? aren't you said that you were fired or resigned and going back to KL for good...? you gotta be kidding me....! then she bursted into smiles from the innocent looking just now..... Crap...! I was pranked again....! amazingly there was no anger in me, but pleased to hear that. it was really sad and hurting to learn that a 4 months friendship was about to end by the most stupid-est decision i've ever made and caused endless troubels. things were way too beyond my expectations that i nearly couldn't take it. but what came from her this afternoon was also really a...... :D and =.=" gosh...!!!! i would have knew it.....! God sent her here 4 months ago, He ain't dumping her back just like this....!

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"Amazingly boss didn't say anything, not as i expected. All the stuff i told you was just a prank that i started up myself... :p but the sms was real, from my greatfull heart..." Gotta give her an Oscar Award as she was pretending and acting all the time that she's not coming back.....

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Bravo, Andr3a.

You've got me.....!!!!

No Regrets.....

Finally, I've issue my resignation letter.... Great day to be celebreated (all my friends said that...) I didn't feel any joy of it, but heavy. I kinda can predict what's going to happen. As usual, my boss can't accept it and pretend nothing happened by keeping my letter on his desk. Finally I get the blame from other boss by not letting them know and not handing over responsibilities..... What the....! I mean... I've been talking about it in office, and asking for people to take over my position.....! but being ignored....! And my pastor way out of the country have to contact me because of their DIRECT COMPLAIN....! You gotta be kidding me.....! This ain't games among children,

"when I can't beat you, I complain to ya mama"

No one will like to be in my position! I dare to say this.....! Coz when I'm not in best form, director shoots, boss shoots, and..... guess what...! my pastor/mentor shoots me too..... Wow... TRIPLE SHOOT....!!! when I'm in good form, I ain't get paid....!!!! Yea...! I mean my pay, my PAY CHEQUE....!!!! Four months mann.... Who can tahan...? tell me.. who can tahan...?

When boss asked to stay-on......

"You gotta be kidding me........!!!"

That's my answer.

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When we believe....

Whooooow..... another movie.....! 2 nights 2 movies....! A story of a Legendary Chinese Martial Art Master - Ip Man. This is the 2nd part of the series, took place in Hong Kong at 1940's.

The character Master Hung impressed me with his faith and what he believes when he fight the world chanpion boxer. though he is selfcentered, and greedy.

"For living, I can take off my pride; for Chinese Martial Art, I shall fight and protect our pride...."

- Master Hung, Ip Man 2

When percicution comes, do we christians have the faith and believes as Master Hung to fight till the end...? many will say master hung is stupid or what, but for me, he fight for what he believes with faith, thought his actions and intentions of collecting those illegal fees are not a good role to follow. At least he die of protecting the pride and what he believes in. It hammered me with Peter's react of denying Jesus. When the day comes will I be denying Jesus as well....? Or I'll be standing firm and fight till the end....? Jesus sacrificed Himself for us, why can't we.....?

"Although people has different status in life, I don't believe that one person's integrity is worth more than others; I hope that we can start to respect each other."

- Master Ip Man, Ip Man 2

That's why Ip man can become a legendary martial art master, speechless and totally agree with him. there wouldn't be wars if leaders of nations could think like him and act like him. two thumbs up...!

When Iron Man is not iron anymore.....

Just back from the movie Iron Man 2, the long waited blockbuster..... same story, technology wars.... and some emtional for this time.

Somehow some phrases bugging my mind non-stop....


"What is my greatest creation and always will be, is you."

- Howard Satrk, Iron Man 2

The greatest of a father's love, Tony thought his father never loves him untill he saw his dad's last message for him.... Same as our Father in Heven loves us so much, but sometimes we still think that He never loves us nor favour us. All the things that He had done for us, even send his son to die for our sins, the sad things is many ppl in this world still deny His unconditional love. These put me back to the time when i was studying in collage, my earthly father still kept his hope on me although i was rebellion and there were seems to be no hope in my life.....

“You get too attached to things; you have to let go."

- Ivan Vanko, Iron Man 2

ya.... letting go is such a hard thing to put in practice. i can still remember that a team of missioneries visited D'gap 4 years ago, the message they brought was "letting go..." - Matt 13:44-46. I was like kinda being hammered really really heavy on my head... I have to let go...! I have to let go of my past! In order to revceive what God has prepared for me. A very simple example that i always use to minister to ppl like me. Imagine both your hands are holding on a cup of drink each, when u saw a RM 100 note on the floor. what would you do...?

As I'm now attached to working life, my works draw me away from my life, let go...? Same butter and bread story..... I'm holding onto something, but i can't see anything infront of me.... Dear Dad.... Am I still in a test...? Am I still in the race....?