No Regrets.....

Finally, I've issue my resignation letter.... Great day to be celebreated (all my friends said that...) I didn't feel any joy of it, but heavy. I kinda can predict what's going to happen. As usual, my boss can't accept it and pretend nothing happened by keeping my letter on his desk. Finally I get the blame from other boss by not letting them know and not handing over responsibilities..... What the....! I mean... I've been talking about it in office, and asking for people to take over my position.....! but being ignored....! And my pastor way out of the country have to contact me because of their DIRECT COMPLAIN....! You gotta be kidding me.....! This ain't games among children,

"when I can't beat you, I complain to ya mama"

No one will like to be in my position! I dare to say this.....! Coz when I'm not in best form, director shoots, boss shoots, and..... guess what...! my pastor/mentor shoots me too..... Wow... TRIPLE SHOOT....!!! when I'm in good form, I ain't get paid....!!!! Yea...! I mean my pay, my PAY CHEQUE....!!!! Four months mann.... Who can tahan...? tell me.. who can tahan...?

When boss asked to stay-on......

"You gotta be kidding me........!!!"

That's my answer.

~~~~~~~

When we believe....

Whooooow..... another movie.....! 2 nights 2 movies....! A story of a Legendary Chinese Martial Art Master - Ip Man. This is the 2nd part of the series, took place in Hong Kong at 1940's.

The character Master Hung impressed me with his faith and what he believes when he fight the world chanpion boxer. though he is selfcentered, and greedy.

"For living, I can take off my pride; for Chinese Martial Art, I shall fight and protect our pride...."

- Master Hung, Ip Man 2

When percicution comes, do we christians have the faith and believes as Master Hung to fight till the end...? many will say master hung is stupid or what, but for me, he fight for what he believes with faith, thought his actions and intentions of collecting those illegal fees are not a good role to follow. At least he die of protecting the pride and what he believes in. It hammered me with Peter's react of denying Jesus. When the day comes will I be denying Jesus as well....? Or I'll be standing firm and fight till the end....? Jesus sacrificed Himself for us, why can't we.....?

"Although people has different status in life, I don't believe that one person's integrity is worth more than others; I hope that we can start to respect each other."

- Master Ip Man, Ip Man 2

That's why Ip man can become a legendary martial art master, speechless and totally agree with him. there wouldn't be wars if leaders of nations could think like him and act like him. two thumbs up...!

When Iron Man is not iron anymore.....

Just back from the movie Iron Man 2, the long waited blockbuster..... same story, technology wars.... and some emtional for this time.

Somehow some phrases bugging my mind non-stop....


"What is my greatest creation and always will be, is you."

- Howard Satrk, Iron Man 2

The greatest of a father's love, Tony thought his father never loves him untill he saw his dad's last message for him.... Same as our Father in Heven loves us so much, but sometimes we still think that He never loves us nor favour us. All the things that He had done for us, even send his son to die for our sins, the sad things is many ppl in this world still deny His unconditional love. These put me back to the time when i was studying in collage, my earthly father still kept his hope on me although i was rebellion and there were seems to be no hope in my life.....

“You get too attached to things; you have to let go."

- Ivan Vanko, Iron Man 2

ya.... letting go is such a hard thing to put in practice. i can still remember that a team of missioneries visited D'gap 4 years ago, the message they brought was "letting go..." - Matt 13:44-46. I was like kinda being hammered really really heavy on my head... I have to let go...! I have to let go of my past! In order to revceive what God has prepared for me. A very simple example that i always use to minister to ppl like me. Imagine both your hands are holding on a cup of drink each, when u saw a RM 100 note on the floor. what would you do...?

As I'm now attached to working life, my works draw me away from my life, let go...? Same butter and bread story..... I'm holding onto something, but i can't see anything infront of me.... Dear Dad.... Am I still in a test...? Am I still in the race....?

When tank is empty.......

A friend throw me a question: Is your tank empty....?

Yea.... My tank is empty now, drain and dry. Our life, it is just like a tank. We fill it with things we love to do. It is the matter of what you fill it with, whether it is sustainable? World's Busyness will drain the tank pretty fast. Talking about sustainable, what should we fill it with? Materialism? Pride? Those couldn't sustain even for a while! The first thing came across my mind for the question is worshiping God. That's the only way to fill my tank before it really drain out. It's a very good example to find a balance in a busy world. Then i began to realise that my tank is draining pretty fast, cause of my busy long hours work, it is pulling my own life away from me. That's why I feel frustrated, dry, and hungry (spiritually). I'm not balance anymore. I need to fill my tank to balance out myself between works and my life. Definitely needed to do so. Well, thanks to my buddy who throw me this question, it's worth to think deep about it.

Father in Heaven, my tank is draining out. Father, I pray that You will pour down Your wisdome upon me to turn over the situation. And Father Lord, strenghten me, Father O'Lord, to face the world, to defeat all those who want to draw me apart from You..... Lord O'God, I pray that You will bless my friends and people around me that give me support and encourage me, bless them in a special way O'Lord God Almighty.....

~Amen~

Letter from Sister.....

Dearest CK,

hey hey.. read your msg in msn in tears, realising that i miss u so much that i cried out.

Listen carefully !!! u were NOT the reason/cause to my bad results in A-level. It was me myself !! I was too playful, I played too much, too much distractions that I couldnt resist. IT WAS NOT BECAUSE OF YOU. Dont blame yourself for that, furthermore, it is past tense already!! But to be very honest, I am very glad that God brought me here in AIMST, SP. I came to know God, to be nearer to Him, to met with bunches of great friends, to have a real interesting university life. Every changes He made to my life, there were purposes. He made me know my weakness, He made me realise great things around me which i didnt notice all these while.

Gor.. it's the same thing God is doing on you. He has His purpose. He wants you to excel in something, He wants to mould you to a better person !! He wants to know your own ability, (though you mightbe thinking that He is giving you hard times, He is here just to bring you down, no, that is devil). Dont let 'em bring you down. Dont look at the past, those that we missed, we couldnt wind back the time, so we have to look in front, appreciate our time now. He has a better plan for you !!! Wonderful things will happen. You wont be able to appreciate the "wonderful-ness" if you have not gone through the bitter-ness.

and yes !! we tend to pray more, seek God when we're in hard times. we tend to miss home when we're troubled away from home, because til then only we fully understand the word HOME . Family will always be the one standing by our sides, as we will always be with you, ck. Although our parents always ngam ngam cham cham, they really ngam cham for our own good (though it's really beh tahan sometimes ) You know, they really love you. They want you to be independent. Papa always ask me about you.

Remember,you can always call us, you can always talk/write to me. ANYTIME !!!

You're not alone. We're always here for you.

We miss and love you so much


Shan.

When God Made You....

Its always been a mystery to me,

How two hearts can come together,

And love can last forever.

But now that I have found you I believe,

That a miracle has come when God sends the perfect one.

So gone are all my questions about why,

And i've never been so sure of anything in my life

~chorus~
Oh I wonder what God was thinking,

when he created you.

I wonder if He knew everything I would need,

Because he made all my dreams come true.

When God made you,

He must have been thinking about me.

I promise that wherever you may go,

wherever life may lead you,

With all my heart I'll be there too.

And from this moment on I want you to know,

I'll let nothing come between us,

and I will love the ones you love.

So gone are all my questions about why

~chorus~
Oh I wonder what God was thinking,

when he created you.

I wonder if He knew everything I would need,

Because he made all my dreams come true.

When God made you,

He must have been thinking about me.

~bridge~
He made the sun He made the moon,

To harmonize a perfect tune,

One can't do without the other they just have to be together.

And that is how I know its true,

Your for me and i'm for you and my world

Just cant be right without you in my life

~chorus~
He must have heard every prayer I've been praying

He must've knew everything I would need
When God made you,

He must've been thinking about me.

gRace Continued.....

When great pain and joy mixup, it will steers and drives you to another level of unpredictable.

Floorball brings great joy, and I'm suprise for our faith and desires of winning. We are not satisfied for just having fun anymore, I want to see how far we can go from here; therefore, I want to race, I want to be in the race. I think that's what push me to chase after Glories.....

For this tournament, guys.... I can show you the way to victory, but I want you all to know, if you keep thinking and persuing to win, just to win...! you will learn nothing in the end. I hope you all can learn something else from floorball instead of skills and strategies. It is the connections, bondings, and trusts among ppl that you all have to learn, nomatter in the court or outside the court. Trust and being trusted is an very amazing thing, yet it is so difficult but it will bring you great joy when you get through it. We play as a team, we have to put our trust in each one of us, then we can talk about teamwork. It's the same when you put your trust in God. Must have faith to trust your friends and team mates and even yourself..... Who predicted we will win over NFC by 2 goals....? God did....! Remember, God is always with us, like a father will always be there for his sons and daughters.....